So basically, I’m not feeling well AT ALL. I’m the world’s worst test-taker, plus I’m sicker than I’ve been since pneumonia in 8th grade. Those two things together equal a C (74%) on my history final. I work so damn hard for that class. Harder than any of the losers in that class, anyway. I AM SO ANGRRRRY!
I feel awful. This is such a bad time to get sick. I never get sick! My immune system is normally amazing, but I guess too many nights of little sleep finally did me in. But what awful timing. Graduation is tomorrow, and then I’m going to Denmark soon after. Tylenol is my new best friend, basically. Ughhh.
Because of all of this stress I am getting really depressing and self-destructive. I hate myself. Everything about me is repulsive. Why can’t I be more like her? Why am I not this or that? WHY ME? I hate to be a whiner, but it’s just not fair.
Okay so, tomorrow’s going to be frackin’ (lol, tina is sooo tropical) ridiculous! I have so much shit goin’ down…
1. Gatsby discussin in Lang (3rd period)
2. French Club officer elections - historian (lunch)
3. Link Crew meeting/application turn-in (3:00 pm)
4. Senior Award ceremony - the Michael’s got one (6:30 pm)
I really detest Lang discussions. It’s not that I don’t know what to say, it’s just that others can say it better. I choke up and forget when its my turn, and it always sounds so horribly unnatural. Maybe I’m exaggerating, but I really dislike them. Not to mention Harleen’s in my group… I love her, but she outshines me all the time. I just feel like I’m bringing her down :/
My stomach is churning right now from nervousness. I don’t want to run for officer! I am sooooo worried. In the past 3 years of being a French Club member I’ve lost every competition I entered. Why should this time be any different? I really want to be historian, but I think I’m no match for my competitions pricey assets.
Link Crew will be fine. Not terribly exciting, but right now that’s a good thing!
I really want to go to Michael’s ceremony, but right now it’s looking shady. He came to Esprit de Wolverine for me, and I really want to support him now. I’m so proud! I’m trying to work out a solution to get there and back home…
Today I have quite a bit of work to do. I have to finish The Great Gatsby and do some math homework, and also print some visual aids for my campaign speech. Oh shit, I have to write that, too.